Help! I have to give the D'var Torah for Reform Services at Hillel Friday evening...I didn't realize what I was getting myself into, I got an e-mail and thought they needed song leaders (which I have done before and am comfortable with) but apparently the girl in charge thought I was offering to do the D'var...*gulp* I've never done one before and I want to say something meaningful and relevant to the audience (college kids, naturally). Any suggestions? I've checked out the page at URJ but I am not sure how to translate this parsha into anything relevant to the people I'll be addressing. If you have any suggestions please feel free to leave them in the comments or email soon2bejew@gmail.com. Thanks!
-Hila
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Thursday, March 20, 2008
"The Pimps' Slaves"
In the wake of the Eliot Spitzer drama, Frank Rich writes about the larger problem prostitution poses for American society: the thousands of abused girls who are trapped without hope for escape or rescue. Check it out.
The Pimps' Slaves
The Pimps' Slaves
Monday, January 28, 2008
Wow
So I've been gone for quite some time--my apologies. Lots of things to post about, but they'll have to wait.
Here's a short list though, just for fun:
*School adventures...or lack thereof ;-)
*My brush with death...aka the epic tale of the biatch who crashed into my car because she was on her cell phone and not looking
*My current obsession with Guitar Hero
*My newly purchased Mac Book
*My new Kodak Easy Share digital camera--which has brought me out of the stone age :-)
*Adventures with hair color---or the saga of how to get plum purple back to platinum blonde without it falling out.
*My weight loss regimen, gym misadventures, and tanning bed foibles
*Dating catastrophes and why I will probably end up a spinster...
Yeah, I know you are all excited ;-) Hahahaah stay tuned, dear readers!
Here's a short list though, just for fun:
*School adventures...or lack thereof ;-)
*My brush with death...aka the epic tale of the biatch who crashed into my car because she was on her cell phone and not looking
*My current obsession with Guitar Hero
*My newly purchased Mac Book
*My new Kodak Easy Share digital camera--which has brought me out of the stone age :-)
*Adventures with hair color---or the saga of how to get plum purple back to platinum blonde without it falling out.
*My weight loss regimen, gym misadventures, and tanning bed foibles
*Dating catastrophes and why I will probably end up a spinster...
Yeah, I know you are all excited ;-) Hahahaah stay tuned, dear readers!
Tuesday, November 06, 2007
life...and other things
First off, sorry for my absence! Things have been crazy around here lately, but rest assured, I'm alive :-)
To update the 3 of you that read (used to read? ;-)) this, I have decided to pursue my passion and am going to Cosmetology school. Some of you may be scratching your heads and going "huh?" Let me elaborate a bit. Ever since I was about 13 years old, whenever I was asked what I would do if I could do anything in the world, if I could have my "dream job" I would always reply "I would love to be a celebrity hairstylist and makeup artist." I just never thought that I could make that dream come true, because I 'had' to go to college, get a degree, and find a career. I entered college as a freshman unsure of what I wanted to pursue because I have so many different interests, both intellectual and otherwise, but none of which seemed to really click for me. I thought about becoming an interpreter and translator, possibly working for the State Department or the UN. I contemplated going into social work, working for a non-profit or NGO. Still, nothing really pulled at my heart and said "this is what you're meant to do."
To be honest, I really had quite a hangup about pursuing my dream because of all of the support and encouragement I got while growing up. I know that sounds strange, because my parents always told me I could be anything I wanted to be, and do anything I wanted to do. It's just that I was always told that I was smart enough to do anything, and while I hate to admit it, a big part of me thought that I would be a disappointment to the people in my life if I decided on a career in the beauty industry solely because "I could do so much more." I know that makes me sound shallow, but when you're used to hearing how much potential you have, it makes it hard to choose something that to some people may not be the best use of your talents. Luckily for me, I was beyond wrong. My parents were extremely supportive, and are still. My father told me "If you do what you love, you will never work a day in your life." Well, I'm loving Cosmetology so far, and I can tell that this is really what I want to do. It is such a liberating feeling to be pursuing my dream and not caring if anyone is judging me for it. Like it says on SerandEz, "Be yourself, because the people who care don't matter, and the people who matter don't care." Boy, is that true. I have received nothing but positive feedback when telling people that I am doing Cosmetology, and in fact most of them were like "it's about time!"
So anyway, that's pretty much what's new with me. Along with trying to have a bit of a social life and stay involved with Jewish life. It's great too because my school is in the same city as the University I attended, so I'm still close to all of my friends from college and get to participate in campus Jewish life as if I were still at the University.
Hope everyone is doing well. I'll try not to be absent for so long of a stretch in the future.
-Hila
To update the 3 of you that read (used to read? ;-)) this, I have decided to pursue my passion and am going to Cosmetology school. Some of you may be scratching your heads and going "huh?" Let me elaborate a bit. Ever since I was about 13 years old, whenever I was asked what I would do if I could do anything in the world, if I could have my "dream job" I would always reply "I would love to be a celebrity hairstylist and makeup artist." I just never thought that I could make that dream come true, because I 'had' to go to college, get a degree, and find a career. I entered college as a freshman unsure of what I wanted to pursue because I have so many different interests, both intellectual and otherwise, but none of which seemed to really click for me. I thought about becoming an interpreter and translator, possibly working for the State Department or the UN. I contemplated going into social work, working for a non-profit or NGO. Still, nothing really pulled at my heart and said "this is what you're meant to do."
To be honest, I really had quite a hangup about pursuing my dream because of all of the support and encouragement I got while growing up. I know that sounds strange, because my parents always told me I could be anything I wanted to be, and do anything I wanted to do. It's just that I was always told that I was smart enough to do anything, and while I hate to admit it, a big part of me thought that I would be a disappointment to the people in my life if I decided on a career in the beauty industry solely because "I could do so much more." I know that makes me sound shallow, but when you're used to hearing how much potential you have, it makes it hard to choose something that to some people may not be the best use of your talents. Luckily for me, I was beyond wrong. My parents were extremely supportive, and are still. My father told me "If you do what you love, you will never work a day in your life." Well, I'm loving Cosmetology so far, and I can tell that this is really what I want to do. It is such a liberating feeling to be pursuing my dream and not caring if anyone is judging me for it. Like it says on SerandEz, "Be yourself, because the people who care don't matter, and the people who matter don't care." Boy, is that true. I have received nothing but positive feedback when telling people that I am doing Cosmetology, and in fact most of them were like "it's about time!"
So anyway, that's pretty much what's new with me. Along with trying to have a bit of a social life and stay involved with Jewish life. It's great too because my school is in the same city as the University I attended, so I'm still close to all of my friends from college and get to participate in campus Jewish life as if I were still at the University.
Hope everyone is doing well. I'll try not to be absent for so long of a stretch in the future.
-Hila
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Apples & Honey
Happy New Year, everyone! L'shanah Tovah!
I will be in Seattle for Rosh Hashanah this year, which should prove to be an interesting experience. My Mormon sister HAD to pick the 15th for her wedding, and, being the loving little sister I am, did not complain. Nu, you're thinking, what's the problem? Rosh Hashanah will be over by the 15th, though it is Shabbos. Right, well, in order to be out there with plenty of cushion-time in case of emergencies, delays, etc, we have to leave tomorrow morning. And yeah, she's getting married on Saturday evening, which is still Shabbos. I've basically decided I have to let it go--there are too many other external factors going into her wedding planning/considerations that my wishes/needs have to be left alone. I wish it could be differently, but this is my sister and she's only getting married once (Mormons do this peculiar thing they call "sealing" which means that when you get married, you're married for all of eternity. Yikes!) so I suppose I can suck it up and be involved. LOL no, seriously, I am excited about the wedding and all of that stuff--and besides, it's not like HaShem is gonna get too peeved, I'm not "official" yet anyway. So pffft.
Ok, enough rambling about me---I hope all of you have a sweet and happy New Year and eat lots of good food! (Who am I kidding, Jews are professional eaters--you all will be stuffed!)
Shalom!
-Hila
I will be in Seattle for Rosh Hashanah this year, which should prove to be an interesting experience. My Mormon sister HAD to pick the 15th for her wedding, and, being the loving little sister I am, did not complain. Nu, you're thinking, what's the problem? Rosh Hashanah will be over by the 15th, though it is Shabbos. Right, well, in order to be out there with plenty of cushion-time in case of emergencies, delays, etc, we have to leave tomorrow morning. And yeah, she's getting married on Saturday evening, which is still Shabbos. I've basically decided I have to let it go--there are too many other external factors going into her wedding planning/considerations that my wishes/needs have to be left alone. I wish it could be differently, but this is my sister and she's only getting married once (Mormons do this peculiar thing they call "sealing" which means that when you get married, you're married for all of eternity. Yikes!) so I suppose I can suck it up and be involved. LOL no, seriously, I am excited about the wedding and all of that stuff--and besides, it's not like HaShem is gonna get too peeved, I'm not "official" yet anyway. So pffft.
Ok, enough rambling about me---I hope all of you have a sweet and happy New Year and eat lots of good food! (Who am I kidding, Jews are professional eaters--you all will be stuffed!)
Shalom!
-Hila
Thursday, September 06, 2007
I feel pretty, oh so pretty!
Ok this is going to be a pretty boring post. Oh, wait, that's how ALL of my posts are, LOL! :-p
Anyhooz, this summer has been a rough one, but it has also brought about some changes in my life that I am very excited about. I have started working out and eating better, and am well on my way to being the "best me" I can be. If anyone is interested, I highly recommend Bob Greene's "The Best Life Diet" because it's really about making a lifestyle change, not just being on a diet.
This is really cheesy but the reason I was inspired to post today was because I just got my hair cut and it is suuuuuuper cute! It's the little things in life, I guess you could say. See, I'm sort of in the process of growing my hair out after an incident last winter when I decided that I'd look good as a redhead (when I'm platinum blonde naturally---ha ha that was fun, not!). Anyway, my hair is back to it's natural Marilyn Monroe hue, but unfortunately it had taken on a bit of a mullet-ish look. And as attractive as mullets are, I just wasn't really feelin' it. So I made an appointment with my fabulous hairstylist and voila! I'll post a picture on here if I can figure out how to rig my brother's digital camera, but imagine a modified version of Posh Spice's hairstyle.
Ok, enough of my lame blather about hairstyles and diets, I have laundry to get out of the dryer. Hope that everyone is having a good week---just think, Shabbos is just a day away!
Shalom,
Hila
Anyhooz, this summer has been a rough one, but it has also brought about some changes in my life that I am very excited about. I have started working out and eating better, and am well on my way to being the "best me" I can be. If anyone is interested, I highly recommend Bob Greene's "The Best Life Diet" because it's really about making a lifestyle change, not just being on a diet.
This is really cheesy but the reason I was inspired to post today was because I just got my hair cut and it is suuuuuuper cute! It's the little things in life, I guess you could say. See, I'm sort of in the process of growing my hair out after an incident last winter when I decided that I'd look good as a redhead (when I'm platinum blonde naturally---ha ha that was fun, not!). Anyway, my hair is back to it's natural Marilyn Monroe hue, but unfortunately it had taken on a bit of a mullet-ish look. And as attractive as mullets are, I just wasn't really feelin' it. So I made an appointment with my fabulous hairstylist and voila! I'll post a picture on here if I can figure out how to rig my brother's digital camera, but imagine a modified version of Posh Spice's hairstyle.
Ok, enough of my lame blather about hairstyles and diets, I have laundry to get out of the dryer. Hope that everyone is having a good week---just think, Shabbos is just a day away!
Shalom,
Hila
Friday, August 31, 2007
Chipmunk-y
Shabbat Shalom, everyone! Just a quick note to say thanks again for all of the kindness in the past few days, and always, of course.
I'm just checking in to let you know (for those of you who didn't know already) that my surgery this morning went well--all the wisdom teeth came out without complication :-) Apparently I told my mother in the recovery room that I felt like I had just been on an "acid trip" which totally made her laugh, naturally, as I haven't the slightest idea what that would be like. I do remember that I felt like I wasn't under for very long and that I saw lots of colors and weird things like a strange dream. Anyway, the only downside so far has been that since my lower left tooth was impacted it caused pain immediately after I woke up from anesthesia, but good ol' Vicodin has taken care of that.
Sadly, I'm not supposed to talk much or do anything but rest, so my regular Shabbat routine has been canceled. Instead I will be curled up on the couch in my parents home drinking apple juice and tomato soup. *sigh* I guess it could be worse! I wish all of you a wonderful Labor Day Weekend and Shabbat Shalom!
I'm just checking in to let you know (for those of you who didn't know already) that my surgery this morning went well--all the wisdom teeth came out without complication :-) Apparently I told my mother in the recovery room that I felt like I had just been on an "acid trip" which totally made her laugh, naturally, as I haven't the slightest idea what that would be like. I do remember that I felt like I wasn't under for very long and that I saw lots of colors and weird things like a strange dream. Anyway, the only downside so far has been that since my lower left tooth was impacted it caused pain immediately after I woke up from anesthesia, but good ol' Vicodin has taken care of that.
Sadly, I'm not supposed to talk much or do anything but rest, so my regular Shabbat routine has been canceled. Instead I will be curled up on the couch in my parents home drinking apple juice and tomato soup. *sigh* I guess it could be worse! I wish all of you a wonderful Labor Day Weekend and Shabbat Shalom!
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Rest In Peace
Thank-you to everyone who called or wrote and who said a prayer or sent warm thoughts. The Brick family decided to remove Rob's life support Sunday evening at 8 pm. He passed away at 8:22. He was 40 years old.
The visitation is Thursday evening and the funeral with military rites is Friday morning. My younger brother will be a pall bearer. While I am saddened by Rob's passing, I cannot even put into words how torn up my brother is right now, he was like the third child in the Brick family. Anyway, it is hard to believe he is gone now, but I hope that he has found peace.
I hope that everyone is doing well.
In peace,
hila
The visitation is Thursday evening and the funeral with military rites is Friday morning. My younger brother will be a pall bearer. While I am saddened by Rob's passing, I cannot even put into words how torn up my brother is right now, he was like the third child in the Brick family. Anyway, it is hard to believe he is gone now, but I hope that he has found peace.
I hope that everyone is doing well.
In peace,
hila
Sunday, August 26, 2007
A decision no one ever wants to make
This will be a brief post. Things have been hectic here, to say the least... This past Thursday a friend of my family was in a terrible motorcycle accident and has been in the hospital ICU on a ventilator and unconscious ever since. This man, his wife, and his children were our neighbors for 7 years and their children were like extra siblings for my younger brother, who is very close in age to them. Today they are faced with the horrible decision of whether or not to keep him on his life support...My brother is on his way there as I write this, and I know that the family is waiting until he gets there to make their decision. How I wish it were not a decision they had to make. I am praying fervently that Hashem gives them peace and comfort in this time of devastating confusion.
While I do not normally use people's real names on here, in this situation I feel that it is necessary. If you are so inclined, please pray for Robert Brick and his family--wife Tammy, daughter Morgan, and son Andrew. Thank you.
I hope to return to blogging on a more positive note in the near future...
While I do not normally use people's real names on here, in this situation I feel that it is necessary. If you are so inclined, please pray for Robert Brick and his family--wife Tammy, daughter Morgan, and son Andrew. Thank you.
I hope to return to blogging on a more positive note in the near future...
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Testing, testing...1,2...
Hello there blogland! Sorry it's been ages since I've posted! Although, to be fair, the book meme (see below) was actually done just a couple of days ago but I can't figure out how to change the date from the date I started it as a draft to the date it was actually published. *sigh* Oh well, I remain technologically challenged--what else is new? :-P
So I decided to copy a page from the Brooklyn Wolf and post a weight-loss tracker on my blog. I may or may not post about my diet/lifestyle change attempts from time to time, we shall see.
Also, I copied from AidelMaideland decided to post a map of the countries I've visited. Next up will be the states I've visited. Just thought it was kind of a fun idea.
create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands
Hmm...let's see... nothing much to report here for me, just gearing up to go back to school and evaluating the various options I have, but more on that later. In the meantime, MAZEL TOV to RaggedyMom on the birth of her new baby boy!
So I decided to copy a page from the Brooklyn Wolf and post a weight-loss tracker on my blog. I may or may not post about my diet/lifestyle change attempts from time to time, we shall see.
Also, I copied from AidelMaideland decided to post a map of the countries I've visited. Next up will be the states I've visited. Just thought it was kind of a fun idea.
create your own visited countries map
or vertaling Duits Nederlands
Hmm...let's see... nothing much to report here for me, just gearing up to go back to school and evaluating the various options I have, but more on that later. In the meantime, MAZEL TOV to RaggedyMom on the birth of her new baby boy!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Oooh, look Ma, another meme!
Look at the list of books below: Bold the ones you’ve read. Mark in blue (or aqua ;-)) the ones you want to read. Cross out/strikethrough the ones you wouldn't touch with a ten foot pole (or mark them some other way if you can't figure out how to strike through text--I used green) Finally, italicize the ones you've never heard of.
I've read a fair amount of these (didn't like all of them, but ehh) and some I was like "wth is that???" Enjoy. I'm tagging RaggedyMom and Orieyenta because CYM already did this one :-P
1. The DaVinci Code (Dan Brown)
2. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee)
4. Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery) The movies are better but I still liked it.
9. Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling) Only so my friends will quit bugging me about it LOL!
12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)
13. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling) Again only so my friends will leave me alone.
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden) It was good but then I read Geisha: A Life (Mineko Iwasaki) whom Golden based Memoirs on and she claims that he fabricated so much of the book that she was ashamed, so then I was a little peeved.
16. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (Rowling) See above.
17. Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
18. The Stand (Stephen King)
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling) Ahem.
20. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte) High school Honors English. 'Nuff said ;-)
21. The Hobbit (Tolkien)
22. The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger)
23. Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. Life of Pi (Yann Martel)
26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)
27. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte) Oh, high school Honors English LOL!
28. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis) Didn't read it but I have the BBC-produced movies (there are 2 on VHS)
29. East of Eden (John Steinbeck) I HATE Steinbeck. Ugh. I read The Red Pony in 6th grade and Of Mice and Men in 7th and again in 9th grade English and loathed it both times, and The Grapes of Wrath in 12th grade, again, I hated it.
30. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
31. Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks)
33. Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34. 1984 (Orwell) 9th grade book report
35. The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. The Red Tent (Anita Diamant) She came to speak at my University and I felt dumb because everyone but me had read it--even my non-Jewish friends! Oh well, her "Choosing a Jewish Life" is a fave so I guess it's all good :-)
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
44. The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
45. The Bible --I've read the Christian version in several variations, as well as the TaNaKh (translated of course)
46. Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas) I liked the movie but I have no desire to read the book.
48. Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt) One of my all time favorites
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck) Again, I repeat, I HATE STEINBECK.
50. She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens) Technically I didn’t really read it so much as sleep through it…
53. Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens) Why was I tortured in English class?
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald) 9th grade English
56. The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling) Enough with the HP already! :-p
58. The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
60. The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrew Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolstoy) Don't necessarily plan on reading it any time soon but I figure to be considered "well-read" it's kind of a must, right?
64. Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
67. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Ann Brashares)
68. Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo)
70. The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding) Saw the movies which were great but I still want to read the book.
72. Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
73. Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje)
75. The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
76. The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
78. The World According to Garp (John Irving)
79. The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. Charlotte's Web (E.B. White) One of my favorites as a kid
81. Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck) YUCK.
83. Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
84. Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. Emma (Jane Austen)
86. Watership Down(Richard Adams) 9th grade English, totally creeped me out but I loved it :-P
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding) Yuck. 12th grade English. Though my bff and I still get a chuckle out of quoting some lines from it.
93. The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)Read it just this spring, couldn’t put it down.
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
96. The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton) 8th grade English. Hated it.
97. White Oleander (Janet Fitch)
98. A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. Ulysses (James Joyce)
Bonus: The Princess Bride (William Goldman) I’ve seen the movie, does that count?
I've read a fair amount of these (didn't like all of them, but ehh) and some I was like "wth is that???" Enjoy. I'm tagging RaggedyMom and Orieyenta because CYM already did this one :-P
1. The DaVinci Code (Dan Brown)
2. Pride and Prejudice (Jane Austen)
3. To Kill A Mockingbird (Harper Lee)
4. Gone With The Wind (Margaret Mitchell)
5. The Lord of the Rings: Return of the King (Tolkien)
6. The Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring (Tolkien)
7. The Lord of the Rings: Two Towers (Tolkien)
8. Anne of Green Gables (L.M. Montgomery) The movies are better but I still liked it.
9. Outlander (Diana Gabaldon)
10. A Fine Balance (Rohinton Mistry)
11. Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire (Rowling) Only so my friends will quit bugging me about it LOL!
12. Angels and Demons (Dan Brown)
13. Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix (Rowling) Again only so my friends will leave me alone.
14. A Prayer for Owen Meany (John Irving)
15. Memoirs of a Geisha (Arthur Golden) It was good but then I read Geisha: A Life (Mineko Iwasaki) whom Golden based Memoirs on and she claims that he fabricated so much of the book that she was ashamed, so then I was a little peeved.
16. Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone (Rowling) See above.
17. Fall on Your Knees (Ann-Marie MacDonald)
18. The Stand (Stephen King)
19. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban (Rowling) Ahem.
20. Jane Eyre (Charlotte Bronte) High school Honors English. 'Nuff said ;-)
21. The Hobbit (Tolkien)
22. The Catcher in the Rye (J.D. Salinger)
23. Little Women (Louisa May Alcott)
24. The Lovely Bones (Alice Sebold)
25. Life of Pi (Yann Martel)
26. The Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy (Douglas Adams)
27. Wuthering Heights (Emily Bronte) Oh, high school Honors English LOL!
28. The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe (C. S. Lewis) Didn't read it but I have the BBC-produced movies (there are 2 on VHS)
29. East of Eden (John Steinbeck) I HATE Steinbeck. Ugh. I read The Red Pony in 6th grade and Of Mice and Men in 7th and again in 9th grade English and loathed it both times, and The Grapes of Wrath in 12th grade, again, I hated it.
30. Tuesdays with Morrie (Mitch Albom)
31. Dune (Frank Herbert)
32. The Notebook (Nicholas Sparks)
33. Atlas Shrugged (Ayn Rand)
34. 1984 (Orwell) 9th grade book report
35. The Mists of Avalon (Marion Zimmer Bradley)
36. The Pillars of the Earth (Ken Follett)
37. The Power of One (Bryce Courtenay)
38. I Know This Much is True (Wally Lamb)
39. The Red Tent (Anita Diamant) She came to speak at my University and I felt dumb because everyone but me had read it--even my non-Jewish friends! Oh well, her "Choosing a Jewish Life" is a fave so I guess it's all good :-)
40. The Alchemist (Paulo Coelho)
41. The Clan of the Cave Bear (Jean M. Auel)
42. The Kite Runner (Khaled Hosseini)
43. Confessions of a Shopaholic (Sophie Kinsella)
44. The Five People You Meet In Heaven (Mitch Albom)
45. The Bible --I've read the Christian version in several variations, as well as the TaNaKh (translated of course)
46. Anna Karenina (Tolstoy)
47. The Count of Monte Cristo (Alexandre Dumas) I liked the movie but I have no desire to read the book.
48. Angela’s Ashes (Frank McCourt) One of my all time favorites
49. The Grapes of Wrath (John Steinbeck) Again, I repeat, I HATE STEINBECK.
50. She’s Come Undone (Wally Lamb)
51. The Poisonwood Bible (Barbara Kingsolver)
52. A Tale of Two Cities (Dickens) Technically I didn’t really read it so much as sleep through it…
53. Ender’s Game (Orson Scott Card)
54. Great Expectations (Dickens) Why was I tortured in English class?
55. The Great Gatsby (Fitzgerald) 9th grade English
56. The Stone Angel (Margaret Laurence)
57. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets (Rowling) Enough with the HP already! :-p
58. The Thorn Birds (Colleen McCullough)
59. The Handmaid’s Tale (Margaret Atwood)
60. The Time Traveller’s Wife (Audrew Niffenegger)
61. Crime and Punishment (Fyodor Dostoyevsky)
62. The Fountainhead (Ayn Rand)
63. War and Peace (Tolstoy) Don't necessarily plan on reading it any time soon but I figure to be considered "well-read" it's kind of a must, right?
64. Interview With The Vampire (Anne Rice)
65. Fifth Business (Robertson Davis)
66. One Hundred Years Of Solitude (Gabriel Garcia Marquez)
67. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants (Ann Brashares)
68. Catch-22 (Joseph Heller)
69. Les Miserables (Hugo)
70. The Little Prince (Antoine de Saint-Exupery)
71. Bridget Jones’ Diary (Fielding) Saw the movies which were great but I still want to read the book.
72. Love in the Time of Cholera (Marquez)
73. Shogun (James Clavell)
74. The English Patient (Michael Ondaatje)
75. The Secret Garden (Frances Hodgson Burnett)
76. The Summer Tree (Guy Gavriel Kay)
77. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn (Betty Smith)
78. The World According to Garp (John Irving)
79. The Diviners (Margaret Laurence)
80. Charlotte's Web (E.B. White) One of my favorites as a kid
81. Not Wanted On The Voyage (Timothy Findley)
82. Of Mice And Men (Steinbeck) YUCK.
83. Rebecca (Daphne DuMaurier)
84. Wizard’s First Rule (Terry Goodkind)
85. Emma (Jane Austen)
86. Watership Down(Richard Adams) 9th grade English, totally creeped me out but I loved it :-P
87. Brave New World (Aldous Huxley)
88. The Stone Diaries (Carol Shields)
89. Blindness (Jose Saramago)
90. Kane and Abel (Jeffrey Archer)
91. In The Skin Of A Lion (Ondaatje)
92. Lord of the Flies (Golding) Yuck. 12th grade English. Though my bff and I still get a chuckle out of quoting some lines from it.
93. The Good Earth (Pearl S. Buck)
94. The Secret Life of Bees (Sue Monk Kidd)Read it just this spring, couldn’t put it down.
95. The Bourne Identity (Robert Ludlum)
96. The Outsiders (S.E. Hinton) 8th grade English. Hated it.
97. White Oleander (Janet Fitch)
98. A Woman of Substance (Barbara Taylor Bradford)
99. The Celestine Prophecy (James Redfield)
100. Ulysses (James Joyce)
Bonus: The Princess Bride (William Goldman) I’ve seen the movie, does that count?
Friday, July 06, 2007
I've been tagged! Aaaaaaah!
Ok, ok, so I guess I have been in hiding for too long. Orieyenta has tagged me so I suppose I should finally get off my lazy tuchis and do this ;-) Thanks, O, for making me come back to the blogosphere, it has been too long!
Here we go:
The Rules are:
~ Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves.
~ The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed.
~ At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
1. I am addicted to The Learning Channel, the Food Network, Lifetime, and HGTV. I can't help it. :-p
2. I am a Diet Pepsi fanatic. I can stomach Diet Coke, but if I have the choice, Diet Pepsi is the one for me!
3. I love love love love love studying other cultures, but religions in particular interest me. Of course, my love of travel goes hand in hand with that.
4. My secret dream job is to be a hairstylist and celebrity makeup artist.
5. As a kid, I wanted to be Shirley Temple. I even had a Care Bears cake for my fourth birthday that said "Happy Birthday, Shirley Temple" Yeah, I guess you could say I was a bit obsessed...Thank goodness my mom indulged me and didn't send me to a shrink! :-)
6. I used to do beauty pageants. Yup, you got that right, interviews, speeches, swimsuits, evening gowns and all. Big hair and fake eyelashes, the whole nine yards. And I LOVED it. *sigh* You can take the girl out of the country... ;-)
7. I am an encyclopedia of song lyrics. More often than not, I know the band/singer and title as well, but I for sure know the lyrics to songs as far back as the 1950's all the way through today. I was raised on the "golden oldies" and I didn't know what "pop" music was until I was about 8 or 9--my favorite songs were Chantilly Lace by the Big Bopper and La Bamaba by Richie Valens! Today, however, I have been known to impress my friends with my awesome rapping skills ;-) Take that, P Diddy!
8. I can sleep almost any where, any time, on anything if I am tired enough. I cannot, however, sleep if any dresser drawers are open, or my closet door, or my bedroom door. Maybe I'm borderline OCD, I don't know, but those things simply drive me nuts until I'm forced to get up and close them all myself.
Ok, I don't even think that 8 people read this blog, but I guess I'll tag them anyway. I was going to tag RaggedyMom but I see she's already done it, so I'm tagging Elie, Fudge, JewCess (though she has been MIA since February so I don't know if she'll respond), aaaand...Well, I think that's about it. So get to it, folks!
BTW, does anyone know what the deal is with this new blogger? I can no longer add links or anything because it won't let me out of the HTML-edit-mode-thingy....I'd appreciate the help as I am feeling rather challenged. Thanks!
-Hila
Here we go:
The Rules are:
~ Each player lists 8 facts/habits about themselves.
~ The rules of the game are posted at the beginning before those facts/habits are listed.
~ At the end of the post, the player then tags 8 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know that they have been tagged and asking them to read your blog.
1. I am addicted to The Learning Channel, the Food Network, Lifetime, and HGTV. I can't help it. :-p
2. I am a Diet Pepsi fanatic. I can stomach Diet Coke, but if I have the choice, Diet Pepsi is the one for me!
3. I love love love love love studying other cultures, but religions in particular interest me. Of course, my love of travel goes hand in hand with that.
4. My secret dream job is to be a hairstylist and celebrity makeup artist.
5. As a kid, I wanted to be Shirley Temple. I even had a Care Bears cake for my fourth birthday that said "Happy Birthday, Shirley Temple" Yeah, I guess you could say I was a bit obsessed...Thank goodness my mom indulged me and didn't send me to a shrink! :-)
6. I used to do beauty pageants. Yup, you got that right, interviews, speeches, swimsuits, evening gowns and all. Big hair and fake eyelashes, the whole nine yards. And I LOVED it. *sigh* You can take the girl out of the country... ;-)
7. I am an encyclopedia of song lyrics. More often than not, I know the band/singer and title as well, but I for sure know the lyrics to songs as far back as the 1950's all the way through today. I was raised on the "golden oldies" and I didn't know what "pop" music was until I was about 8 or 9--my favorite songs were Chantilly Lace by the Big Bopper and La Bamaba by Richie Valens! Today, however, I have been known to impress my friends with my awesome rapping skills ;-) Take that, P Diddy!
8. I can sleep almost any where, any time, on anything if I am tired enough. I cannot, however, sleep if any dresser drawers are open, or my closet door, or my bedroom door. Maybe I'm borderline OCD, I don't know, but those things simply drive me nuts until I'm forced to get up and close them all myself.
Ok, I don't even think that 8 people read this blog, but I guess I'll tag them anyway. I was going to tag RaggedyMom but I see she's already done it, so I'm tagging Elie, Fudge, JewCess (though she has been MIA since February so I don't know if she'll respond), aaaand...Well, I think that's about it. So get to it, folks!
BTW, does anyone know what the deal is with this new blogger? I can no longer add links or anything because it won't let me out of the HTML-edit-mode-thingy....I'd appreciate the help as I am feeling rather challenged. Thanks!
-Hila
Monday, June 11, 2007
Testing, testing...1,2...
Hello there, bloggers! My sincerest apologies to the 3 of you who read this for not updating recently. I have been overwhelmed with work and family and household stuff the past couple of weeks, and therefore haven't had much time at all to sit down and blog. *sigh* I am beginning to understand what RenReb and Shifra were talking about when they have taken breaks from blogging---it's hard to have the time! I have tried to catch up on everyone's blog tonight since I had a few minutes to check in, but if I haven't left you a comment please forgive me!
I will try to write more in the next day or so, as I have a few topics I'd like to discuss. Let's just hope they don't all leave my brain before I get a chance jot them down. Ha. Ha. Fat chance of that.
Oh well. Hope all is well with everyone!
-Hila
I will try to write more in the next day or so, as I have a few topics I'd like to discuss. Let's just hope they don't all leave my brain before I get a chance jot them down. Ha. Ha. Fat chance of that.
Oh well. Hope all is well with everyone!
-Hila
Monday, May 21, 2007
Farewell
Just stopping in to say that I won't be stopping in (probably) much in the next week or so. My younger brother is graduating from high school, and many of our relatives are going to be in town, so this coming week is going to be even more of a cleaning spree than the past week and a half has been. Oy. I will try to keep reading everyone else's blog while I'm on hiatus but that may not happen. Don't worry this isn't goodbye forever, or even for very long, just a week or so.
Also, my aunt Lois passed away this morning at 8:30 a.m. She lost her very long and tough battle with cancer after fighting and hanging on for almost 7 years. I will miss you.
Until soon...
Also, my aunt Lois passed away this morning at 8:30 a.m. She lost her very long and tough battle with cancer after fighting and hanging on for almost 7 years. I will miss you.
Until soon...
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
Hebrew Names...Or, I stole this from Elie
The following is a comment I left on Elie's site. I'd link to it but blogger is not letting me put in links at the moment. Pfft!
Very interesting topic, indeed. As a ger (in the process) I don't have parents or grandparents or anyone to name me. I go by Hila because my dear friend from Israel, Keren, said that I should have it as my Hebrew name because it means "halo" like an angel's halo--and that it fits me not only because my "real" name starts with an H, but also I am very blonde much like the gold of the halo of an angel, and that also my personality is very sweet. I'd say she was just sweet-talking me but I don't know what that would have gotten her ;-)
This past Shabbos I was having a chat with some friends and somehow my Hebrew name came up. All the rest of my friends said, no no we should give you a different name. So now the new rabbi (Ed. Note: by new rabbi I mean the potential replacement rabbi for our Hillel) and everyone is all about finding me a Hebrew name.
Addition: The rabbi asked me what kind of name I was wanting, if it mattered if it started with the same letter as my "real" name, etc. I said I wanted something with meaning, something representative of my personality and my own journey to Judaism. He suggested several lovely names, as did some of my close friends, including Noa, Ora, Hadassah, Nediva, and Zahavah. What do you all think? Please post opinions/ideas/suggestions for potential names in the comments section or e-mail me :-)
When my conversion is complete, I am not sure whether I want to take the traditional ____ bat Avraham Avienu v' Sarah Imenu. It's not that I don't want to be known as a convert/ger/ Jew-by-choice, but because I think I would feel a deeper connection if I could have "adoptive" Jewish parents. Maybe the rabbi and my tutor. Just a thought.
What are your opinions on that bit as well? I know it is a somewhat new and "controversial" thing but I read about it in Anita Diamant's book "Choosing a Jewish Life" and it struck me. I don't want to offend anyone, and of course I would be beyond honored to have Abraham and Sarah as my spiritual parents, but part of me also feels like I would have a deeper connection to everything if I could "adopt" Jewish parents. Let me know what you think, I value all of your opinions and insight!
-Hila (or ???)
Very interesting topic, indeed. As a ger (in the process) I don't have parents or grandparents or anyone to name me. I go by Hila because my dear friend from Israel, Keren, said that I should have it as my Hebrew name because it means "halo" like an angel's halo--and that it fits me not only because my "real" name starts with an H, but also I am very blonde much like the gold of the halo of an angel, and that also my personality is very sweet. I'd say she was just sweet-talking me but I don't know what that would have gotten her ;-)
This past Shabbos I was having a chat with some friends and somehow my Hebrew name came up. All the rest of my friends said, no no we should give you a different name. So now the new rabbi (Ed. Note: by new rabbi I mean the potential replacement rabbi for our Hillel) and everyone is all about finding me a Hebrew name.
Addition: The rabbi asked me what kind of name I was wanting, if it mattered if it started with the same letter as my "real" name, etc. I said I wanted something with meaning, something representative of my personality and my own journey to Judaism. He suggested several lovely names, as did some of my close friends, including Noa, Ora, Hadassah, Nediva, and Zahavah. What do you all think? Please post opinions/ideas/suggestions for potential names in the comments section or e-mail me :-)
When my conversion is complete, I am not sure whether I want to take the traditional ____ bat Avraham Avienu v' Sarah Imenu. It's not that I don't want to be known as a convert/ger/ Jew-by-choice, but because I think I would feel a deeper connection if I could have "adoptive" Jewish parents. Maybe the rabbi and my tutor. Just a thought.
What are your opinions on that bit as well? I know it is a somewhat new and "controversial" thing but I read about it in Anita Diamant's book "Choosing a Jewish Life" and it struck me. I don't want to offend anyone, and of course I would be beyond honored to have Abraham and Sarah as my spiritual parents, but part of me also feels like I would have a deeper connection to everything if I could "adopt" Jewish parents. Let me know what you think, I value all of your opinions and insight!
-Hila (or ???)
Monday, May 07, 2007
...
So right now I should be studying for finals. Buuuut, I don't want to. So I'm taking a break.
I don't really have anything too insightful to post at the moment. I'm stressed about school and everything, sad about the fact that many of my friends are graduating and will be moving away, and in general in a sort of ticked-off mood.
However, that being said, I do know that I have much to be grateful for (this seems to be a recurring theme on my blog :-))
I am excited that one of the staff members at my university's Hillel has agreed to help study with me under the supervision of an out-of-town (but not Out Of Town) rabbi so that I can finally get this whole conversion thing underway. This year has been so busy that I have not been able to organize any sort of formal classes or anything, and I have been frustrated to say the least. A big problem, as I have mentioned before, is the fact that I live in the middle of the cornfields and therefore don't have access to a large Jewish community. But I am lucky because the woman that I am going to be learning with is in the process of becoming an ordained Cantor in the Conservative movement, and has been teaching Bar/Bat Mitzvah and Hebrew classes since she was an undergraduate, so she has a very in-depth knowledge of Judaism. Okay, so she's not an Orthodox Rabbi, but she just about could be...Y'know, if there were women rabbis in Ortho Judaism ;-)
Anyhoo...so yeah, that's a comforting thing. I can't express how much I love learning about Judaism, how much time I spend looking through bookstores at all the books about Judaism and adding to my library, and how much joy it brings me to be among all of the members of the small but vibrant Jewish community here in the Midwest. I thank Hashem every day that I am able to learn and grow more, even if it is unconventional ways.
In other news, the JLIC couple that has been at our campus for the past three years is leaving, and I sad to see them go. I have grown very close to them and will miss them immensely. They won't be too far away, though, so hopefully I will get to visit. The potential, for lack of a better word, "replacement" rabbi was in town for Shabbos this past weekend and it was very nice to get to visit with him. What a funny man! He was able to relate to us students so well that it was if we had all known him for a long time already! He was making jokes with us and telling stories as if he were a college student himself, yet he had plenty of insightful questions and comments. We were sitting around after Shabbos lunch and somehow the topic came up about my conversion, and it was just so awesome how enthusiastic he was about talking to me and learning about my "story." I felt like he was genuinely interested in talking to me and getting to know me, as well as all of the other students, and that was really touching. We are all crossing our fingers that he chooses to come to our Hillel and not somewhere else!
Well, I think that's about it for my random, brain-dead ramblings... Time for my mush-brain to get back to studying!
-Hila
I don't really have anything too insightful to post at the moment. I'm stressed about school and everything, sad about the fact that many of my friends are graduating and will be moving away, and in general in a sort of ticked-off mood.
However, that being said, I do know that I have much to be grateful for (this seems to be a recurring theme on my blog :-))
I am excited that one of the staff members at my university's Hillel has agreed to help study with me under the supervision of an out-of-town (but not Out Of Town) rabbi so that I can finally get this whole conversion thing underway. This year has been so busy that I have not been able to organize any sort of formal classes or anything, and I have been frustrated to say the least. A big problem, as I have mentioned before, is the fact that I live in the middle of the cornfields and therefore don't have access to a large Jewish community. But I am lucky because the woman that I am going to be learning with is in the process of becoming an ordained Cantor in the Conservative movement, and has been teaching Bar/Bat Mitzvah and Hebrew classes since she was an undergraduate, so she has a very in-depth knowledge of Judaism. Okay, so she's not an Orthodox Rabbi, but she just about could be...Y'know, if there were women rabbis in Ortho Judaism ;-)
Anyhoo...so yeah, that's a comforting thing. I can't express how much I love learning about Judaism, how much time I spend looking through bookstores at all the books about Judaism and adding to my library, and how much joy it brings me to be among all of the members of the small but vibrant Jewish community here in the Midwest. I thank Hashem every day that I am able to learn and grow more, even if it is unconventional ways.
In other news, the JLIC couple that has been at our campus for the past three years is leaving, and I sad to see them go. I have grown very close to them and will miss them immensely. They won't be too far away, though, so hopefully I will get to visit. The potential, for lack of a better word, "replacement" rabbi was in town for Shabbos this past weekend and it was very nice to get to visit with him. What a funny man! He was able to relate to us students so well that it was if we had all known him for a long time already! He was making jokes with us and telling stories as if he were a college student himself, yet he had plenty of insightful questions and comments. We were sitting around after Shabbos lunch and somehow the topic came up about my conversion, and it was just so awesome how enthusiastic he was about talking to me and learning about my "story." I felt like he was genuinely interested in talking to me and getting to know me, as well as all of the other students, and that was really touching. We are all crossing our fingers that he chooses to come to our Hillel and not somewhere else!
Well, I think that's about it for my random, brain-dead ramblings... Time for my mush-brain to get back to studying!
-Hila
Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Bleeding Heart...
The first draft of a poem I wrote yesterday is below. Let me know what you think! ;-)
Bleeding Heart
I read a book once, about women who lived only to build one another up
To fulfill in each of them a sense of belonging, love, and worthiness
I have wondered about these women, even though they are fictional characters
Wondering if they could exist, in part, in me
I feel a kinship with all of these women, but most of all, with the one called May
Named for her mother’s love of the Spring months
Representative of hope and rebirth
With a heart so full it seemed to consume her
I sometimes think that I am May
I feel the pain of those who suffer so acutely
It is as if I too am suffering
A bleeding heart, someone once called it
If other’s hearts bleed, then mine floods
Gushing wildly with the tears and pleas
Of those who are downtrodden, oppressed, and heartbroken
May died of a broken heart
So filled by the sorrows of the world
That she simply could not hold back the dam
And the floodgates opened until she had drained all of her very being
Emptied out to God and humankind alike
The sacrifice of a pure and gentle soul
Sometimes I think that I, too, will die of heartbreak
That I cannot bear to hear and see the suffering of my people
All people
My heart is full of love and compassion
To the point where I think it should burst
Yet it is weighted with the chains of cruelty, dehumanization, and prejudice
It is my daily struggle to balance the love and the hate of the world with my heart
Before the chains around it will tighten
And cause it to simply burst into a thousand pieces
Leaving my once compassionate and caring soul
An empty chasm of apathy…
Bleeding Heart
I read a book once, about women who lived only to build one another up
To fulfill in each of them a sense of belonging, love, and worthiness
I have wondered about these women, even though they are fictional characters
Wondering if they could exist, in part, in me
I feel a kinship with all of these women, but most of all, with the one called May
Named for her mother’s love of the Spring months
Representative of hope and rebirth
With a heart so full it seemed to consume her
I sometimes think that I am May
I feel the pain of those who suffer so acutely
It is as if I too am suffering
A bleeding heart, someone once called it
If other’s hearts bleed, then mine floods
Gushing wildly with the tears and pleas
Of those who are downtrodden, oppressed, and heartbroken
May died of a broken heart
So filled by the sorrows of the world
That she simply could not hold back the dam
And the floodgates opened until she had drained all of her very being
Emptied out to God and humankind alike
The sacrifice of a pure and gentle soul
Sometimes I think that I, too, will die of heartbreak
That I cannot bear to hear and see the suffering of my people
All people
My heart is full of love and compassion
To the point where I think it should burst
Yet it is weighted with the chains of cruelty, dehumanization, and prejudice
It is my daily struggle to balance the love and the hate of the world with my heart
Before the chains around it will tighten
And cause it to simply burst into a thousand pieces
Leaving my once compassionate and caring soul
An empty chasm of apathy…
The Secret Life of Bees
Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't been posting really regularly lately. I promise I'm still here. It's about to be finals week, though, so there has been lots to do. On top of all that, there have been several emotionally draining events and issues going on in my life to add to the stress load. *sigh* But with God's help, I will get through it all.
Spring really is the season of rebirth and new beginnings. Some things in my life have been ending, and others are just beginning. Yesterday was the last day of my Women's Empowerment Group, a bittersweet meeting of 8 strong women who have come so far over the course of this semester, yet still have so far to go. We have listened to each other's joys, sorrows, pain, and healing. We have worked to build one another up when those in our lives were unable to help. We have cried together, laughed together, ranted and raved and been angry together. These 7 other women have shown me the beauty that lies within every woman. The strength they have shown after overcoming horrible trauma and abuse is incredible. Each of us has expressed feelings of despair, loneliness, and weakness. Yet we are not weak. We may have long paths of recovery, discovery, growth and healing ahead of us, but we are not weak, for just by being able to come together and share our very deepest emotions takes tremendous strength.
The two leaders of our group asked us to bring something that empowered us to share with the group for the last meeting. Some women brought mementos and reminders of positive things, some brought poems and quotes that inspire them even in the darkest of hours. One of our leaders brought a box of beautiful stones, each one different, for all of us to keep to "remind us all of the uniqueness of this group, that will never be the same again, to keep each other with us always, as a reminder that though this may be the end of one thing, it is the beginning of many new and positive events. Even if you do not remain in touch, each of you has one of these stones, and you all know what they stand for. Keep them as a reminder of the rock of strength you all are, and have been for one another."
Then our other leader said that as a "final activity" we were going to do something different (normally at the end of the group we do focused breathing and/or meditation) She asked us to pair up with someone, face them, and take turns repeating the following: "You are a beautiful person, and I am so glad that you are in this world."
It probably sounds cheesy, even a bit cliche, to say that I cried yet again at this moment. How can such a small thing mean so much? I don't know why that felt so great to hear, and to say, but it did. Somehow it was a concrete affirmation of the love and friendship that I have found in these women, and in others in my life. I've posted before about how I am a firm believer in the "small things" yet somehow I had forgotten just how much of an impact those things have on me--I had become too focused on doing them for others.
Anyway, I have probably bored whoever is actually reading this to the point of being semi-comatose, so I'll stop. I just wanted to make this post to express my feelings. Writing really is cathartic, isn't it?
I want to end with something one of the women in my group said right before leaving, something she hoped that we could all take with us. As she went around the room giving us hugs, she said "Whenever you are feeling like you are at your lowest, that everyone is against you, remember love. Remember love in whatever form you feel it. But always remember that you deserve love, and you are loved."
So from me to all of you out there: You are loved.
Shalom,
Hila
Spring really is the season of rebirth and new beginnings. Some things in my life have been ending, and others are just beginning. Yesterday was the last day of my Women's Empowerment Group, a bittersweet meeting of 8 strong women who have come so far over the course of this semester, yet still have so far to go. We have listened to each other's joys, sorrows, pain, and healing. We have worked to build one another up when those in our lives were unable to help. We have cried together, laughed together, ranted and raved and been angry together. These 7 other women have shown me the beauty that lies within every woman. The strength they have shown after overcoming horrible trauma and abuse is incredible. Each of us has expressed feelings of despair, loneliness, and weakness. Yet we are not weak. We may have long paths of recovery, discovery, growth and healing ahead of us, but we are not weak, for just by being able to come together and share our very deepest emotions takes tremendous strength.
The two leaders of our group asked us to bring something that empowered us to share with the group for the last meeting. Some women brought mementos and reminders of positive things, some brought poems and quotes that inspire them even in the darkest of hours. One of our leaders brought a box of beautiful stones, each one different, for all of us to keep to "remind us all of the uniqueness of this group, that will never be the same again, to keep each other with us always, as a reminder that though this may be the end of one thing, it is the beginning of many new and positive events. Even if you do not remain in touch, each of you has one of these stones, and you all know what they stand for. Keep them as a reminder of the rock of strength you all are, and have been for one another."
Then our other leader said that as a "final activity" we were going to do something different (normally at the end of the group we do focused breathing and/or meditation) She asked us to pair up with someone, face them, and take turns repeating the following: "You are a beautiful person, and I am so glad that you are in this world."
It probably sounds cheesy, even a bit cliche, to say that I cried yet again at this moment. How can such a small thing mean so much? I don't know why that felt so great to hear, and to say, but it did. Somehow it was a concrete affirmation of the love and friendship that I have found in these women, and in others in my life. I've posted before about how I am a firm believer in the "small things" yet somehow I had forgotten just how much of an impact those things have on me--I had become too focused on doing them for others.
Anyway, I have probably bored whoever is actually reading this to the point of being semi-comatose, so I'll stop. I just wanted to make this post to express my feelings. Writing really is cathartic, isn't it?
I want to end with something one of the women in my group said right before leaving, something she hoped that we could all take with us. As she went around the room giving us hugs, she said "Whenever you are feeling like you are at your lowest, that everyone is against you, remember love. Remember love in whatever form you feel it. But always remember that you deserve love, and you are loved."
So from me to all of you out there: You are loved.
Shalom,
Hila
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
Truly a Tragedy
By now, I am sure, most have you are aware of the terrible tragedy that occurred at Virginia Tech yesterday. I don't have much to say on the subject, other than it breaks my heart, and shakes me to my very core.
I am sure that we are all praying for the families and loved ones of all those touched by this horrible event.
I am sure that we are all praying for the families and loved ones of all those touched by this horrible event.
Friday, April 13, 2007
Freak Out Time
Ok folks...Or, RaggedyMom * Umm...So I'm in a bit of a pickle. Well, not really a pickle, so much, but I'm nervous. You see, I regularly attend Shabbat services at our University's Hillel but this week is different. That is because I have been asked to lead the Reform Services tonight. I've helped out in some way or another before when they've needed someone (High Holiday services, etc) but this is the first time I'll be completely on my own.
I have no qualms about it, in fact I'm honored that they would ask me, and also it's a boost to my already inflated ego because I get to sing but not only do I get to sing, I get to be in charge! Bwuahahahahah!!! Mmmm k, so I am a little evil. I'm ok with that ;-)
You see, while I consider myself to be very religious, and I try to live the most frum life I can, I don't always attend the Orthodox services at shul. Don't get me wrong, my rabbi "rocks my world" though I am not married to him! I have a great relationship with him and his wife, I have been a guest in their home, I babysit their children, etc. So it isn't because of that that I don't go to Orthodox services. No, it's because they are so freaking long and slow and boring. I went to a conference this past fall and attended Orthodox services at the Hillel at the college I was visiting, and it was AWESOME! Upbeat, enthusiastic, so full of joy and life. I was almost a bit scared that I'd accidentally walked into some Baptist revival or Evangelical service--just kidding! But the point is that I actually felt like I was a part of the service. Trust me, I understand that halacha about the mechitza, kol isha, etc. That doesn't bother me so much as the annoyingly monotonous and somber tone of the services at my Hillel. I think we need PT to come help us out and show us how it's done! Maybe it's because all of the men in the Orthodox services are completely tone deaf and they all seem to be obsessed with competing with each other to see who can be the loudest (and most off-key). I mean, "make a joyful noise unto the Lord" should apply regardless, right?
Anyway, so most of the time I attend Conservative or Reform services, depending on my mood. Thus, I am at least not completely in the dark about how the whole deal breaks down. I know which prayers are always done, which ones sometimes get thrown in, etc. (Pause) 1:15 p.m.
UPDATE 3:00p.m,: I just went to Hillel and got a Reform Siddur and the JCSC Intern was kind enough to go through it with me and make notes about which things we repeat, skip, or do in some odd fashion, so I feel much better about that.
Not that it would be a huge deal if I flubbed up a little bit, but I definitely want to make sure that I at least have a pretty good grasp on everything. It will probably be a small crowd anyway since it is Mom's Weekend here, but if need be I can always ask someone what tune they want to sing for a prayer or if they want to add something in--that's the beauty of Reform services, it's much more relaxed and therefore there isn't as much pressure on me (or anyone) to be perfect.
Alrighty, I guess I'm done babbling now. Time to read this week's parsha and try and come up with a meaningful d'var.
*You're the best! Thanks for the support!
I have no qualms about it, in fact I'm honored that they would ask me, and also it's a boost to my already inflated ego because I get to sing but not only do I get to sing, I get to be in charge! Bwuahahahahah!!! Mmmm k, so I am a little evil. I'm ok with that ;-)
You see, while I consider myself to be very religious, and I try to live the most frum life I can, I don't always attend the Orthodox services at shul. Don't get me wrong, my rabbi "rocks my world" though I am not married to him! I have a great relationship with him and his wife, I have been a guest in their home, I babysit their children, etc. So it isn't because of that that I don't go to Orthodox services. No, it's because they are so freaking long and slow and boring. I went to a conference this past fall and attended Orthodox services at the Hillel at the college I was visiting, and it was AWESOME! Upbeat, enthusiastic, so full of joy and life. I was almost a bit scared that I'd accidentally walked into some Baptist revival or Evangelical service--just kidding! But the point is that I actually felt like I was a part of the service. Trust me, I understand that halacha about the mechitza, kol isha, etc. That doesn't bother me so much as the annoyingly monotonous and somber tone of the services at my Hillel. I think we need PT to come help us out and show us how it's done! Maybe it's because all of the men in the Orthodox services are completely tone deaf and they all seem to be obsessed with competing with each other to see who can be the loudest (and most off-key). I mean, "make a joyful noise unto the Lord" should apply regardless, right?
Anyway, so most of the time I attend Conservative or Reform services, depending on my mood. Thus, I am at least not completely in the dark about how the whole deal breaks down. I know which prayers are always done, which ones sometimes get thrown in, etc. (Pause) 1:15 p.m.
UPDATE 3:00p.m,: I just went to Hillel and got a Reform Siddur and the JCSC Intern was kind enough to go through it with me and make notes about which things we repeat, skip, or do in some odd fashion, so I feel much better about that.
Not that it would be a huge deal if I flubbed up a little bit, but I definitely want to make sure that I at least have a pretty good grasp on everything. It will probably be a small crowd anyway since it is Mom's Weekend here, but if need be I can always ask someone what tune they want to sing for a prayer or if they want to add something in--that's the beauty of Reform services, it's much more relaxed and therefore there isn't as much pressure on me (or anyone) to be perfect.
Alrighty, I guess I'm done babbling now. Time to read this week's parsha and try and come up with a meaningful d'var.
*You're the best! Thanks for the support!
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